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Suicide and Self-harm PreventionSuicide and Self-harm Prevention by Heidi
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Forgiveness takes twoThe words are strugglingForgiveness takes two by Tangled-Tales
to tumble off my tongue,
and despite having
a fleshy cushion
to rest on,
they stain my teeth
and sting like acid
"I'm sorry," I stutter,
but the bitter taste
doesn't leave my tongue-
not because the words weren't true,
but because I know
I won't hear,
what happened?you took me
like a hurricane leaving the
i was a memory of couples past,
empty laughter and fragile smiles
echoing off your skin,
sound waves of nostalgia i've never
your eyes broke my ribs,
my heart falling out of place,
into your waiting hands
because your smile cut like a surgeon
past all the layers i'd built up
to deter potential lovers
from falling in love
you were so sure,
so certain that you were the danger
and i was the harbor
for you to spill your soul
late nights with your hair mixing into mine,
looking at empty photo frames on your wall,
pictures of your parents long removed;
our families broke us
and we were using the pieces to make a future
but then we stopped,
the storm was over,
you had no passion left
and i was not the innocence and stability
the picture we'd put togheter,
built out of memories of each other's shirts
words, whispers, promises, regrets,
no longer looked like
I Can't Let Go"I'm happy for you," that's a lie
I say it only to bury the pain
But it's no use, as tears begin to fall
Like a warm mid-summer rain
Heart broken and alone,
Is how I feel tonight,
Everything comes crashing down
Just when things start to seem right.
Empty heart and empty mind,
But still I'm trying to move on,
Fighting against the thoughts
Telling me it's better that you're gone.
I can't find any words to speak...
To tell you how I feel,
Because I don't feel much of anything
And it's hard to tell if this is real.
i wanted to be enough.i'm sure you deleted
my phone number,
and every picture of me,
even the one of me smiling
that you said you loved
and would keep
i didn't delete yours,
it's still there
the rose still beside it,
and every thread of messages
you sent, and incoming calls, voice mails
telling me good morning
when i was asleep
so i could wake up to your voice
while you were gone to work
and i was still in your
that's okay though,
i knew how we would end
the first time you looked in my eyes
and stopped my heart
from across the room;
i knew how bad you'd hurt me
and i knew i'd be more than willing
to let you do it all over
but you're not interested
because you know me,
and that's the part
you couldn't deal
It HurtsHead buried in my hands
It's all I can do to fight how bad it hurts
It's all I can do to fight how bad
I want to be with you
When I see you, my whole world lights up.
And it's all I can do to fight back the tears
When you don't want to be with me.
When I feel like you're - not ignoring me - but,
Like just tolerating that I'm there.
Do you know how bad that hurts?
How it threatens to tear me apart
From the inside out, until I'm nothing
But alone again.
How bad it hurts, when I'm used to seeing your smiling face
Looking back at me
Like you're happy to see me too, but I don't.
The smile isn't there, or the words,
It's just silence between you and me.
I need to hear your words
I need to see your smile
You're the only one who can make it seem
Like everything will be ok, when I know it's not.
So when you act like we're not ok
I slowly start to fall apart,
Because you're the only thing holding me together.
I wish you could just understand
That I need you
this weaknessi am soft and weak.
my mother once told me
she wished she had a curvier body (while looking at mine),
but i'm only rounded edges because i hold fat that i
cannot turn to muscle;
i am weak because i am weak,
my heart is full of self pity and selfishness.
i stand in the hot shower, not wanting to
move at all because i sense no point in acting. i
stare at the fogged up glass and the condensation
dripping down the crying mirror, fat droplets, sad and heavy like i am.
lethargy dominates the bathroom, paces about the shower,
presses me against the wall and licks my bare skin with his dusk tongue.
i feel ten types of happiness, while rooted to the tile.
simealtanously, i am colored in twenty hues
of anguish, only because i deny movement (i refuse myself,
i am my own stray animal).
i am monochromatic, and weak,
and insanely, impossibly euphoric all at once:
this what heroin does to people.
i believe (it gets us killed, belief) i have a high pain tolerance,
but do i dare test that hypoth
Lonely LunaThe moon hangs low within the sky
Closer than the one I hope to find
Looking up radiance flows
Frozen light engulfs my soul
Icy rays caress my spine
Wanting to reach out
To find some warmth
Wish I may
Wish I might
It's is going to be a lonely night
FearI want to scream but my voice is gone. Taken by fear.
I want to hurt the people who did this. But I’m held down by fear.
I want to starve myself. But I’m stopped by fear.
I want to claw out my eyes and stop seeing the horrors each night in my dreams. But I’m gripped by fear.
I want to do it all. But I’m stopped by fear. Fear of making other people hurt.
Making other people want to help, but I fear.
Fear for what they will think if they see. See me. See my true colours.
So I keep quiet. Restrain myself. Feed myself. Keep my nails short. I don't talk to people about myself.
I stay fearful.
Silence HurtsHow long have I waited?
Days turn to weeks,
and weeks to months.
You said everything I wanted to hear,
but you've Vanished.
I try so hard to keep you in my heart,
only to be crushed by silence.
I can't find you.
I don't know where you are.
I don't know what to do with all of these intense emotions.
It's not fair!
Why do I have to deal with this all by myself?
Have I been mislead?
Are you really someone completely different than I thought?
You have been all these things and more to me.
So if that's the real you...
Where ARE you?
It's like you no longer exist.
The pain of loss floods my systems.
I try to believe you haven't left or betrayed me.
That I wasn't being used,
and you'd come back any day now.
I just need to wait a little longer.
Fear and sorrow give birth to anger,
and I rail at the universe for how things are.
About how you are gone,
and I am,
and always will be...
Daddy PleaseDaddy, don't lie to me, I wanna know
Where is she hiding, and why did she go?
Daddy, don't lie to me, please, pretty please
It's like I can hear her voice within the breeze.
Daddy, don't lie to me, where did she run?
Daddy, I know all the things you have done.
Daddy, don't lie to me, I've seen her scars
Hidden from me like the faraway stars.
Daddy, don't tell me, I don't wanna hear
I'm hoping these thoughts are just worries, just fears.
Daddy, don't tell me, I can't stand the facts
I just wanna think this is some silly act.
Daddy, I love you, you know this is true
But honestly, why do you do what you do?
Daddy, I saw you when you pushed her down
She screamed and she cried, and you made not a sound.
Daddy, I saw you when you stabbed her back
She fell to the floor and again, you attacked.
Daddy, I saw when you stole her goodbyes
And Daddy, I saw when you silenced her cries.
Daddy, don't lie to me, I know the truth...
You hurt her, you killed her, you've darkened my youth.
Daddy, don't hu
R.I.P.Did anyone notice that she winced if you raised your arm?
Did anyone notice that her eyes were wide with alarm?
Did anyone notice that she never looked you in the eye?
Did anyone notice that her voice was but a sigh?
Did anyone notice that her skin was always bruised?
Did anyone question whether she might be abused?
Did anyone question why she walked in obvious fear?
Did anyone question why one day she did not appear?
Did anyone recognize her face on the six-o’clock news?
Did anyone see her remains pulled from the river refuse?
Did anyone care that this quiet girl no longer exists?
No. No one did. And she will never even be missed.
I hate who I've become, but I don't even know who I am anymore,
My name is AshFlame. You can call me Ash, if you want. I'm 16. Female. I use She/her pronouns. I draw, and talk to friends on here. Most of my art will be traditonal, and will either consist of Slenderverse, Creepypasta, or other things of that nature. I also will post nature photo's from time to time. Maybe even a poem or two
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